The daily vagaries

After many days, I again lay my hands on that "something" which I religiously avoid to be in contact with - newspaper. Especially, Indian newspaper !! you ask, why? Ofcourse, I would imagine so but do take a look at the main page of our typical indian newspaper (which day?? does not matter, really !!!). The top news stories go like this: * XXX killed as bus falls off the bridge.... * Mumbai bundh called again on ..... * Navy captures pirates * I am going for Jihad, he told mom * Centre seeks states' views on adultery law change I look at it again from the eyes of the watchman who stands at the gates of my apartment society. He is serving for a 12 hour duty, each night - somehow strains himself to keep awake, fight the night hours away, only to be able to earn a meagerly 5000 Rs per month (~100 USD per month). I look at the news again from his eyes - nothing makes sense. Why are buses falling off? Who are these pirates? What is this adultery law change? Not one of these is...

Torn between two directions ! Usual, isn't it? Such is the mental / emotional self - always pulling weaving and unweaving multiple threads at the same time. Mind is restless O'Krsna ! So what is the current dichotomy that is creating ripples in the deeper ocean of my mind? It is surely related to the feeling of time in my life. I realize that I am stuck alternate between two kind of mindsets - one which says " There is lots of time in life ahead. I have known a lot and what next can I do ...that will really bring something new to me. and is anyhow any learning going to make any difference now. Haven't i known by now that by the time, we learn - we are ready to die. The life is basically a tale told by an idiot. It is primarily a time pass and time pass only - rest all is a facade " and second which says " The life is too short and time is running away. I have lost so much of time already in sheer ignorance and procrastination - let it be no more. I cannot eve...

July 2008 -- The world isn't kept running because it's a paying proposition. (God doesn't make a cent on the deal.) The world goes on because a few men in every generation believe in it utterly, accept it unquestioningly; they underwrite it with their lives – Henry Miller. Today I kept one day off – off from the world, one day away from any kind of work; I call it “the real upavaas” (wherein when people go on without food for one day) !!!   and I find it too less. The world around is so rich – the people, things, music, literature – rich of treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people; we just need to develop an interest in it and forget about ourselves for some time. It is very interesting to see how we elevate the importance of “I/myself” in our daily life and how big an issue we make out of ourselves each day – wherein the truth is that we are only a spark in the whole scheme of universe which is continuing since milleniums. In the whole perspective, our lives are...